Have you ever studied the kings in the Old Testament? It’s been awhile, but one lesson I learned studying them over time continues to resonate in the very depths of my soul. There were some kings who lived their whole lives honoring God, but then at the end, they caved into sin.
I ponder on that often. One would think living a life honoring God would give one strength to finish the race in the same stride. But the choices in our past do not over rule our choices for today.
A dear friend of mine has stood by her husband through some very treacherous years. He made a few bad choices years ago that had tsunami affects not just in his life, but hers, their son’s, their families, and their friends as well, for many, many years. The price for his sin was high. They have all paid that price. But she has stuck with him, stood by him, honored God with her choices, honored God with their son. And today, they get to begin a new life!
There were a few times she privately inquired about divorce, and I was flat-out honest with her. She heeded my advice and stood by him because he was making a real and sincere effort with accountability. My heart soars tonight for my friend and her family!
Another friend of mine, however, is making some seriously bad choices right now. She has lived many years honoring God, making some hard choices that many people don’t even know exist, raising her children alone. All of those years, though, are going to be blown to pieces when her choices hit the fan. What is conceived must give birth, and it will not be pretty when it does. And my heart is very heavy; very heavy. She is blinded and cannot see the width and breadth of the consequences of her sin. Yes, sin is sin in the eyes of God, but the consequences of sin are not equal.
I understand how those kings led long lives honoring God only to fail in their old age. Life wears you down, sometimes; weakens you. You grow weary of always doing the right thing. And you relax. But the consequences of sin are not equal, and they stretch far beyond the one who commits the sin. It is not wrong to be weary. It is not wrong for thoughts to enter your mind. What one does when weary, and what one does with those thoughts, becomes either right or wrong.
When my time on this earth comes to an end, whenever that may be, may He find me faithful … and my kids and my husband and my future generations, too.
As for me, my life has already been poured out as an offering to God. The time of my death is near. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, and I have remained faithful. And now the prize awaits me—the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will give me on the day of his return. And the prize is not just for me but for all who eagerly look forward to his appearing. II Timothy 4:6-8